Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Just be Yourself

Maria Striver is on Oprah today saying for the first time in her life she is claiming her identity.  She is becoming a journalist again.   She has lived up to the Kennedy legacy all his life.

Well, Arnold became governor she lost her identity.   She lost her journalist job.  She was raised to be a person to live for another - for the great cause.  To be what is expected of you.

So many women feel lost because their lives were defined by society - a man's created society.  Men set the rules in society, religion, government.  At jobs!

And they are doing a hell of a good job - aren't they?

My dad was an ass hole.    The meaner and ignorant he could be the better he liked it.   My mother and him fought like cats and dogs - always.  It was disgustingly painful!   Living with them and later associating with them was the most crucially painful experience.  I am so glad I have nothing to do with any of them!   What a bunch of whining, red-necks, perfect, holier than though, hypocrites.   You know, pretty much like the church and the Bush dynasty.  Ass Holes!
Let's see how we can rip you off even more!  Let's drag you through the dirt!  Let's kick you in the gut - while you're down.

To make them feel better and mightier they picked on people.   Criticized!   God they were so perfect!   LIke this perfect god - men created in their own loving likeness.  Men are so egotistical !  Of course they created this bible thing to suit themselves and their own needs.

They people, especially women how to act - for "man's" serving benefits of course.  The guys in my family wanted the women to stand right there and serve them as they did stuff.  I just stood there and let them do it wrong!  You know they knew everything.

When I was growing up I was instructed by my mother to be docile and make the man look good.   Women weren't expected to know anything.  There "duty" was to love, honor, and "obey".  Kiss his ass - in other words.   Be a brainless servant in other words!  A sex object and you better look good and if strayed - it was your fault.   Because you didn't kiss his ass enough.

Women turn on their own - so it's no surprise to me that women "younger" women turn on their own.   Oh, they have to get the man!   It's competitive!   Women turn on their own.   Too bad!

"I don't want to be what people want me to be anymore"!   Women put themselves on the back burner so the man can look good and be successful.  Or the family.  Or the mother.  I hate my mother!  I can't stand to be in the same room with her.   Haven't seen her for almost three years! YIPPEE!  I've never been happier or freer!

I was so sick of being told how to act, what to say, "what will people think" by my mother and preacher brother.  God, he thought he was perfect!  Oh he followed all the rules.  He spends every spare minute with his "buddies".   Men are weird!   He works with men all day and hangs with them in a club.  Gay?  

Read "Just Who Will You Be" by Maria Striver.

Fame is an image - other's people's impression of who you are.   If you marry fame - that doesn't work either.   Done of us is better off than the other.   You alone, or me, we are all good enough just as we are.   

And in my words - just be yourself.   No one is better than you.   All these hot shot relationships?  Just look good!  Hey, I was in a 15 year relationship.  I felt grounded.   I tried to create a good image for straight people, like my ignorant family, to see.   But, they didn't get it.  It was still "What can I do for them".     Always  them!    I'm so glad I don't see any of them!

My friends are my family!   My true family!  I'm tired of kissing asses and living up to other's expectations for THEIR good - not mine.