and gay...

On being sixty and gay I am seeing big changes in women's types. My generation of lesbians are so butch...what is with that?

Did only the butch come out? Or the feminine lesbian still stuck in marriages or in a fog of disgrace?

What is the deal. It's quit obvious to me that I see younger women in their forties and younger who are feminine. They are women being women.

Was it a roll playing need? I swear all out women between seventy and forty are so butch. I don't fit. God, I can't wait until my next life time. I do not fit into this life span. I was born much too soon. I am a woman, a feminine woman who has blond hair - it's a natural looking blond. I take pride in my femininity.

Do more masculine women have more testosterone? Maybe. But why? Where are the older feminine women I ask myself over and over again. Can you tell I am a feminine woman attracted to feminine women. Butch does not do it for me. I am a woman in love with women....not masculine. I have already spent half of my life living a lie trying to please the ignorant egotistical, hypocritical church and "controlled" society.

And why are all lesbians over forty over weight, sedentary and smokers? What is the deal? It's the reason why I do not attend lesbian functions...there is nothing there, no one there, for me!

Now, my younger friends, the active ones, one even in her fifties is more feminine. Is it the active life style.

It seems there is no place for me.





Why are we so stuck in the past?