and gay...

On being sixty and gay I am seeing big changes in women's types. My generation of lesbians are so butch...what is with that?

Did only the butch come out? Or the feminine lesbian still stuck in marriages or in a fog of disgrace?

What is the deal. It's quit obvious to me that I see younger women in their forties and younger who are feminine. They are women being women.

Was it a roll playing need? I swear all out women between seventy and forty are so butch. I don't fit. God, I can't wait until my next life time. I do not fit into this life span. I was born much too soon. I am a woman, a feminine woman who has blond hair - it's a natural looking blond. I take pride in my femininity.

Do more masculine women have more testosterone? Maybe. But why? Where are the older feminine women I ask myself over and over again. Can you tell I am a feminine woman attracted to feminine women. Butch does not do it for me. I am a woman in love with women....not masculine. I have already spent half of my life living a lie trying to please the ignorant egotistical, hypocritical church and "controlled" society.

And why are all lesbians over forty over weight, sedentary and smokers? What is the deal? It's the reason why I do not attend lesbian functions...there is nothing there, no one there, for me!

Now, my younger friends, the active ones, one even in her fifties is more feminine. Is it the active life style.

It seems there is no place for me.





Why are we so stuck in the past?

A Picture of Health!

My new doctor (new to me) couldn't believe I just turned 60! Really - 60? "You're the picture of health"! She was thrilled! I guess it makes a doctor happy when a healthy one walks in..especially at 60.

I love this stuff. It's all worth it and it makes me to even want to be more healthy when I visit a doctor and they are thrilled.

I'm fairly sure my blood work up should be fine. I'm hopefully my HDL is high...in the 60's...a magical moment would be if it was in the 70's. I know one year when I was very active and I think on the protein diet with my partner at the time it was 90. Yes!

My blood pressure was right on at 120/70. I shared with her the fact that I run, swim, bicycle and do yoga regularly.

I have watched "The Secret" and "What the bleep do we know" and the sequel "How far down the rabbit hole do you want to go?" And therefore feel that I play a key role in creating my own good health and happiness. Life is grand!





It makes living fun when you try the best you can. And I never have a low mood day when I do something active like briskly walk, run, bicycle or swim. Yoga is always a rewarding moment. There are many evenings when I don't really feel like walking the quarter mile to join the group. But I always feel great afterwards and feel so glad that I went.

Life is good! I appreciate all my gifts and blessings of good health and prosperity. I am so grateful for my safety, injury free life. I appreciate that everything in my home, car and with me works and stays well. Thank You!

I have always appreciated my good body and health. My body is a temple to be cared for and appreciated.

Don't do it out of guilt!

Damn that Catholic Church! Guilt! Guilt! Guilt! Especially for women! God have we been suckered! Of course church rules and regulations - Ten Commandments and made up fairy tales of the bible so often misinterpretated to self-serve the authors. Don't trust them.

Do not do anything out of guilt! I repeat! Do not do anything out of guilt! I have stopped. Because if my heart is not in it..then I am not. Oh these authoritarians....end up getting their abusive ways...but I suffered in the end.

So ditch that thought!

A Piece of Cake!

Age sixty is a work of art sculptured by diet, exercise and spirituality. The key is a simple thing such as doing yoga every morning when upon arising. It's the first thing I do and it pays off. I am very flexible.

last week I ran 13.1 miles on Wednesday, rode 100 miles on my bicycle on Thursday and swam a mile on Friday and felt fine. The more I do the easier it gets.

My soul and body are conditioned. My hair is blonde. I am a slim size six and very shapely. Hey, I have bragging rights at sixty. My legs are fabulously shaped and muscular. My arms stay as firm as can be by swimming and using free weights. Downward facing dog plays a key roll in this too.

Yes, I believe sixty can be the new forty; any way, it's the way I feel! Life is grand! I realize my many blessings and praise thanks to the universe daily.

Now that I am 60

Tomorrow, September 24th is my birthday. I was born in 1947 so I'll be sixty tomorrow! I should be sad, cry or moan but I don't really care. I don't feel any different than I did yesterday, or the day before. I'm still doing the same things...even more.

I've been celebrating non stop beginning with gifts, cake and candles last weekend on an annual float trip. I feel blessed to have so many wonderful caring friends. They are my family! There was a magical moment (Edy, was that you?). My friends got a Johnny Cash signing birthday card and before they could give it to me at the campfire that night...while kayaking on the river, my ex found a Johnny Cash CD floating around in the water and scooped it up. They dried it off and placed it in the card and had a magical story to tell me around the campfire. I know that was Edy (my spirit guide). She is magical! We are going to have fun!

My ex is my family and we remain very close, our love never wavering. I'm so blessed. She is arranging my birthday celebration tomorrow evening on my actual birthday. There are many guests coming to cheer on the big 6-0.

Blessed I am for last night my sweet young friends from a running group, we share fun times with, surprised me. They had BBQ, cake and brought gifts. I am so amazed by their love! Totally amazed! You would have thought? Of course, I've never been this young before. No, I haven't! I was straight the first time around - trying to fulfill social standards but failing miserably.

Now, I"m at home and I guess it only fitting that I get the those tender, young years to experience. (Hey, Edy, is that your doing? I knew it! I love you! Together, you and I are endless in creating wonderful, beautiful, magical moments - maybe I'll still get that airplane ride [remember no motion sickness, please]. Yes, I believe Edy has great plans for me). I can't wait!

My journey only begins by opening this yet new discovery of my connectiveness with the spirit world and it's magic! I can't wait! My talents will soar! My loves will be many, deep and moving! I'll see her again - my "catalyst spirit" of change. We will touch and magical sparks will fly for both of us. We are destined to be re-united, too, just like Edy and Georgette!

I will be very comfortable, like Edy helped me to be ...that magical fall day in 2004, actually four days from my 57th birthday. I continue to become younger, firmer, brighter, and prettier. I am very intelligent and defy all human created aging myths. I am magical, truly magical!